I used to lie so close to you
I used to hold you so tightly
I used to get shivers when you kissed my neck
I used to bite my lips when you stared at me
I used to get weak in the knees
I used to get so nervous
I used to love holding hands
I used to wait up for you to come home
I used to love tracing my fingernails down your back
I used to love feeling you in me
I used to….
I used to think and want all these things with you…
And now…now some things broken. What is it that you used to want or think or do? I used to feel so unloved, I used to feel so unequal to you, because I thought you were worth so much more than me. I used to think you would be the best I ever had. I used to dream of our marriage. I used to get so emotional thinking that we would always be together. And Now…now I want out. I want out of feeling like I don’t add up to you, that I am not on the same scale of importance to you or your dreams. I want out of feeling so ugly.